Me, Completely Unfiltered

morgan-3MORGAN BEAL: PSYCHOLOGY MAJOR AT UC RIVERSIDE & HIGH SCHOOL CLASSROOM TUTOR

 

Morgan Beal is a special Friday feature for me, not only because she is one of my closest friends and my cousin, but also because I’ve been blessed to see Morgan in just about every stage in her life, the good and the bad, and to see her now as happy and at rest as she is brings me so much joy. I’ve always looked up to her. She was the older cousin who was really good at painting and singing and everyone wanted to be her friend, so of course I envied her. But, as we bonded over One Direction in their glory days, books, and so much more I came to know her as who she is; a girl who struggles with a lot but loves so fully.

“The cool thing about fashion is that it has the ability to evolve as you evolve and change as a person.”

What I love about Morgan’s style is that it has always reflected how she was feeling on that particular day or at that point in her life. “The cool thing about fashion is that it has the ability to evolve as you evolve and change as a person. Personally, fashion has been a way for me to express myself when I have a hard time expressing my creativity in other areas” I totally understand this too. On days where I feel off what I wear reflects that. I think this aspect of Morgan’s fashion was how our family knew that she wasn’t truly herself, “There was whole chunk of my life where my fashion didn’t express who I really was as God sees me. I had this very negative picture of who I was as a person. Between my weight and my eczema and my self-harm my single goal with fashion was how much of me can I cover up and make myself small and hide.”

It broke my heart to see such a beautiful and loving woman hurt so much but as she slowly began to love herself more it reflected into every aspect of her life, “I’ve grown as a person and become more comfortable with myself as a child of God… as who I am: a future teacher, a daughter, a sister, a friend. I’ve been able to see myself through the eyes of people who love me and as a result it’s been easier to see myself as God sees me and understand the way that He loves me.” Morgan has a new radiant joy that comes with this new confidence, and while she isn’t 100% better, her faith in her Father and her dedication to loving herself is such an inspiration to so many people.
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“I’ve been able to see myself through the eyes of people who love me and as a result it’s been easier to see myself as God sees me and understand the way that He loves me.”

She has a simple yet beautiful faith, not founded on retreat highs or emotions, but on complete knowledge and trust in God’s love. “I’ve always been one of those people who, no matter how hard I believe in God or how hard I pray, I’ve never really ‘felt’ God’s presence in the way other people do. But, the longer I’ve been on this earth and have known people who have strong faith the more I’ve realized that I feel God’s love by the way people who love God love me. I feel His love through their love and it has transformed my life.” I think this is so good to talk about because so many people struggle with not ‘hearing’ God when they pray or not being able to ‘feel’ His presence but to have this example of a woman, who has been through it all and has never had a crazy emotional faith experience, still believe in Him teaches us the ultimate truth. Our faith is not an emotion; it’s a Reality.

“When I was able to recognize that I am made in God’s image my fashion became a reflection of who I truly am.”

morgan-5Now, she has developed a newfound style that comes along with this resurgence of confidence. “When I was able to recognize that I am made in God’s image my fashion became a reflection of who I truly am. My style has developed in a way that I can feel pretty and yet comfortable.” Morgan’s tips for shopping are pretty simple, “Whenever I’m shopping the three things that go through my head are, 1) is it appropriate to wear around high school boys (she is a high school teacher), 2) is it cute and 3) do I feel comfortable. It has allowed me to develop this unique style that is fashionable, fun, and modest.”

Morgan has focused on just being her authentic self and to see that reflected in both her outer and inner beauty has been so inspiring as I struggle to figure out who I want to be in this world. “I’m working on being me, completely unfiltered, and it feels good.”

“I’m working on being me, completely unfiltered, and it feels good.”

Shop at some of Morgan’s Favorites:
Cotton On
H&M
Target